Strength and honor…
Being alive is a good thing…I found out that no matter where you go…some people will hate you. Some people will kinda like you…but mostly some people will hate you. They will have nothing better to do than talk behind your back. Maybe at the end of the day, it entertains them to an extent. Which I can never get since I am very fond of them in the first place. But what really bites me is…any other ordinary day I would shrug it off. I would have 99 more important things to do. What they think of me…really dosen’t reflect who I am. My name Is JB Abano…People I know from my favorite hospitals call me "Fox". I am here because the people I tried to help…accidentally got well. And I thank God everyday…and I ask if I can help some more. I love my friends…and a friend sorta reminded me today what it was like to laugh and just be myself. I can never really play the whole drama thing for very long. I dont live to put people down…I think everyone who knows me…know that I always beef people up. It’s why I am here. I am significantly miserable and clumsy whenever I try being selfish(which always ends up badly anyway). Under tremendous pressure…I am about to take an exam…which I used to think decides who I am. This Holy Week, I implored God for two things. To guide me to complete what I set out to do. And secondly, to help me get people accidentally better again. It is kinda mushy…and i know some of you do not believe in a higher power…but I do…and whatever I do next…that very next step I take…I take it with utmost sincerity. But before anything else, i need to conquer my fears…I am not afraid to show weakness to others…or to give my best to people…I am however afraid of failing and letting people down…but because someone did say that courage was not the absence of fear…but finding the stupdity to face it…and I am glad I got that pegged down real good.
April 7th, 2007 at 11:47 pm
good luck abano, alam ko kaya mo yan. you know where to find me, in case you need someone to listen.
April 9th, 2007 at 6:36 am
So like you, fox. So aptly said. You take care. I hope you are well.
April 9th, 2007 at 9:45 am
Betch! RoJ! Pressure feels great…like a big wave about to hit you…and you dont know if your gonna swim out the other end or just get lost in the confusion underwater…I am so glad I am stupid enough to just go do it…Just miss my friends thats all…Thanks!
April 11th, 2007 at 8:38 am
God bless you dear fox. i know you can do whatever it is you set your heart and mind out to do… it’s all there. just be patient..
i’m just a YM away..
April 19th, 2007 at 6:00 am
What about “Snowy”? We call you Snowy too!
April 19th, 2007 at 9:26 pm
Yeesh! Only Santugon and Habitat official members are allowed to call me “Snowy”…